early

well it's either really early or super late your pick... but i've been tossing and turning all night long just not sure why so i haven't got a wink of sleep i'm gonna be a total crab tommorow or rather this morning, sorry guys! i made tamales!!! yay!! what?? you ask... well i have been saying i was going to make tamales but never actually made them well i did it yesterday i made a ton, steamed 5 and i ate 1 and sent the other 4 with dez and she gave me an awesome compliment that they remind her of her man eroles grandmas tamales. except they have cheddar cheese instead of queso, but she said she kinda liked it better that way so i said we'll just call them an american version haha! i'm getting ready to steam up a few to take back to the rents and sis and chris, and then i have some left so i'm gonna steam them before work teusday and have one for lunch and give the 2 mexicans a couple just to see if they are truly any good or not. i'mgonna try desert tamales when i feel up to it cus they are a lot of work! aww dez helped me rearrange my kitchen cabinet so now i can fit all my groceries in there. haha. and she's so clever cus she put everything to where you can read what it is. well i better go start my water for the tamales they take 50 mins to steam, and you have to keep filling the water back up haha. i'm gonna have to get a collapsable steamer it'll be easier.

better

ok i feel way better now, cus i got right up after that last post pulled my exercise thing out and got on it, not for long but who cares?!?! then my legs were like rubber so i got out my weights and worked on my arms then i felt good so i walked around inside my apartment and was feeling awful about the kitchen so i cleaned it one room at a time it'll go back to non chaos haha. took forever to do the dishes but i did them and i have a ton of groceries meaning stuff to cook. tommorow i make tamales hopefully i don't sleep till dark thirty! haha. i'm going to sit down and wind down now on the couch thing. oh my fav song just came on! i hate when that happens right when you are going to do something else. i've been having probs with my alarm and was almost late for work yesterday friday. 3 day weekend i want to clean and stuff and laundry now so i can just enjoy my weekend i'm getting kinda hungry so i think i'll cook something ugh dishes oh well i'll live, nobody worry i'm just really emaotional cus i'm expecting a visit from and evil aunt name flow. haha ciao!

lonely

i'm sitting here in my apartment just feeling so lonely, fat,ugly. everything. and it doesn't help when i go home i still feel just as lonely. i haven't felt like this in a long time, and i hate it i wish i could just rip my fat off. why am i like this?? i hate the way i look. ok music changed so i'm better now, i think i might pull out my exercise thing right now and get on there. ciao.

misc pics of me and 1 of dez

restless

well just sitting at moms house feeling restless i can't get to sleep to much stuff on my mind but not going to get into all that. mom made the best peach cobbler!! yum yum!! we grilled out and watched a movie pretty good night all around. my tongue ring came unscrewed yesterday and it fell out it freaked me out big time to! but my tongue is all healed up and i can take it out and stuff with no probs. it was so funny i showed amanda and she was all like ewww!!! my nose piercing is infected so i am going to have to get some sea salt and mix with water and spray it on like i should've done in the first placebut was to lazy well gonna go ciao!

just a lil somthin

well just got up about 30 mins ago i paid bills balanced my checkbook and am getting ready to study, its a good day so far. we got a customer call yesterday for having a missing spring the same problem we had last week where he shut the line down and we havent got the part back to find out if it was around the same day or not. if not then we are getting wrote up so i'm kinda stressin about it, but i'm trying to just let it go. it's on a part that i was doing cables and so i should've caught it. and the crazy thing is that we mark the big spring now so we hope it's from day shift or from the other day. i got woke up early today by a hammer cus the maintenance people are doing work on the building, they fixed the light thank goodness and took the back light switch off, and pulled up the carpet at the bottom of the stairs and i geusss they'll start on the stairs soon i dunno. well i g2g so i can get to work early and start working.was that you mom or dad that left that comment on my pic?

cathroom

everyone take pride i'm the only person you will ever meet that has a cathroom disguised as a bathroom. haha! j/k i'm such a procrastinator i didn't go to the store tonight like i needed to but oh well i will live! i'm keeping my camera with me to take updated pics and i'll hook ya'll up with some soon.

oh wait heres a good one! so cute! look right behid me is my laundry basket haha!!

random

just some random thoughts for the day cus i gotta get ready for work. i hate cleaning house! payin bills, cooking, well actually i love cooking just hate cleaning up afterwards. haha. i started to clean the apartment on sunday and figured i'd take it room by room. well i did the cathroom and my room and now the broom and mop and vacuum are in the living room waiting for me to do it. uhh..... haha i just walk around it haha! awful!f anyone knows anyone who sell chicken tamales with green sauce hook me up! they are so hard to make and i'd rather just buy them. haha. at some point i'll post some pics on here dunno when haha. i geuss the next time i'm bored. haha!!! well i geuss i'm gonna head off here i have to go to the store after work tonight. :(

false alarm

well the cell phone thing turned out to be a false alarm thank goodness! haha it was in a tub right by my laundry basket. well not a lot new, managed to get off work before 5. haha!

yay!

yay!! i fixed my computer and i now have internet! so here's an update it's awful i lost my phone somewhere along the lines, when i was bringing in all my stuff but i didn't notice it was missing till later so i went outside and scoured he ground and asked my 2 neighbors about it, so i'm gonna go to at&t in the morning and get a replacement, so everyone send me your number cus they are gone now.

again

well not a whole lot is new with me, work stinks but cucho overtime and so mucho dinero!! haha. i'm glad cus i got my first electric and cable bill ahh! haha. the first one is always the worst! i'm so tired i think i'm gonna hit the hay soon. long day tommorow. oh and i should warn ya'll now if u see me soon i have my nose and tongue pierced so don't freak out.

finnally

well finally here is an update on me. i did end up going through my first seymour storm and of course it was a big one, i got off work and all the street lights were out and the electricity was out at my aprtment so i had to go in and go up the stairs into a dark apartment but i lived it was so scary at first but i knew i would be ok so i lived, been through quite a few storms since then but none as severe as that first one, wats new? well i got my nose pierced, its very cute it's hardly noticable. went shopping today and got like 7 shirts soo cute!next check i'm getting some more jeans. work is kinda dreadful they just fired 2 people on my line they let all the temps go and so we lost 3 people off my line one was college help though but it's an all grl line now and i am not a big fan of them all. haha. but it'll be good! so now i really am the only person on my line who knows how to do every machine for every part soo not cool, a lot of stress because the new people have only had like 1 day of training, so it's gonig to be very nerve racking and difficult! i don't know! arg! ok i need to stop thinking about it i'm gonna go to bed, ciao!