21

well i'll be turning 21 this saturday seems weird considering all the threats of ddo you wanna make to 21 then .... fill in the blank of whatever i didn't do. haha. sometimes i get so mad at myself for not doing what i know needs to be done, like keeping my room clean, and cleaning the bathroom, not hard jobs at all! i think this year is going to be different i'm a grown woman now, and i need to act like it. i've got to set little goals and achieve them that is the key, i tend to look at the whole picture and get so overwhelmed that i think well why bother this is gonna happen or that's gonna happen. i just feel like i'm stuck i'm not sure wat the deal is, do i need to get out of the house? i honestly don't know. right now financially it wouldn't be a good thing. but maybe that's what i need a new start in my own place, but what if its not what i need? who knows! well i g2g to work which is going ok i'm gonna have another big check cus i have so far worked 21 hours overtime and on my last check i worked 22. i still have to days left!

quick

well just gonna update a lil bit right quick. work stinks i'm making good money but it's tough! we've been shorthanded all week and then last night our line was shut down for almost 4 hours
because one of our caulking machines broke, so we didn't make production we were off by like 200 parts which isn't bad considering how much time we lost. speaking of losing things i've lost another 2 pounds bringing my total to 24 pounds, almost half of the 50 i wanna lose before christmas. all right i got to go so i don't be late. ciao!

changing

nobody likes change, but it's always around us, sometimes a big change and sometimes not. my parents and my sister have decided to leave and find a church that they can share their knowledge and stuff at. i have chosen to stay at the church. as difficult as it is to not go with my family especially because that's when i get to see my sister, but i'll get to see her after church. i realized that i am still needed where we are, it's only for cortney that i choose to stay, and that says a lot about how much i love her! because i've had many many problems there but it doesn't matter, when i feel like i'm not able to help anymore i'll probly leave. at first it was kinda weird at church last night but everyone made me feel welcome, well i need to clean the bathroom so ciao!

lil update

well it's a cold and wet day outside just as october should be! haha. i'm getting dressed and stuff cus i have an appt. in louisville at toyota to get an oil change and an automatic transmission flush. well i checked and i lost another 2 pounds bring me to 22 pounds, it's getting slower but i'm still losing.

well....

well.... i geuss with every good comes some bad. i got my check today and i got what i was hoping for a dollar over it actually, i worked 22.5 hours overtime to get it though! haha. then on my way home tonight...... i'm going down the road after scottsburg i don't know what that road is called, but i had turned off my brights because a car was coming well i didn't turn them on right away after that and i geuss in a way that was my mistake. because all of a sudden i see like 4 deer and i swerved to hopefully avoid them cus i couldn't stop in time. but i hit the front daddy deer i mean he was huge! at first glance you'd think it was some guy, but it was a deer. as far as i can tell at 5am it didn't do a whole lotta damage but it did mess up my frame by my headlight, it bent it in or something i dont know. i'm very aggravated about it. haha. oh well. ciao!

better

well things tonight went much better, we had all our people and i learned 2 new machines tonight i like those 2 because they are easier. i'll probly never get to use them though. haha. we get paid tommorow so excited about that! i'm still trying to figure out what to get dad plus i had to wait till i got paid cus i spent it all on work clothes. i think i've got it narrowed down to like 3 different choices. it's sad because it's really late, but hey better late than never. i'm horrible about birthdays i never remember until the last minute. then i'm to poor. haha. but i'm giving him his gift this weekend, not sure what i'm gonna do this weekend. i would like to spend time with the family. well i'm gonna hit the hay.ciao!

memories

memories, i was on my way home last night from work and it was pretty cold outside so i turnedthe heat on and it reminded me of when i was younger and we used to lay in front of the fireplace with hershey. good times!