spongemel

well, i got to work and found out that i would be over on 1008 again doing more training..... i'm starting to get suspicious that they are trying to move me over there. i started learning 2 different machines on that line to. it's also the last 2 machines and the things i have to check before i put them on the shelf. i'm like ahh! that's why i put spongemel in the title because i'm having to soak stuff up like a sponge. honestly i wouldn't mind being on 1008 cus it's really easy and i can keep up the pace pretty good to. i have been talking to mindy about how i'm feeling spriritually and we've been meeting before work and praying together and it has helped a lot. i am so thankful for her i'm just going to have to make the best of church because 1 or 2 negatives shouldn't outweigh all the positives for me. i do need to make more of an effort to learn something from toms sermons or ramblings... haha jk. well i'm tired even though i got out in 8 hours again tonight and not to mention they uped our production 200 parts from yesterday and we still got it all done and in plenty of time for me train on those 2 machines. well ciao!

different

well tonight at work was different because they were crosstraining me on another line see i've been on 1009 but they crosstrained me on 1008 on cables. i was worried that i wouldn't be able to keep up because the people on that line are fast but i had very few problems and the only time i got behind was if my machine got stuck or whatever, by the end of the night i had all my parts done and since i'm the first two machines the other 2 people had probly a good 70 or 80 parts left to finish so i had to kinda twiddle my thumbs cleaning my machine for awhile, we did production but got done an hour early so we did 2 extra boxes and we still got done 30 mins early so we had to clean, but it was ok. tony kept coming over to the line and saying good job, i mean probly 3 or 4 times he came over to check on me and said i was doing an awesome or good job. then when i was headed to sign out he and my old team leader were down a lil ways in the aisle talking and he gave me a thumbs up and said i did a great job tonight, and i was like thanks, and i was standing there waiting to sign out and they were looking at me and talking and smiling and they were talking about me i was like ya'll better quit talking about me! haha. it was nice to know that i'm doing a good job, i expected us to have to work like2 or 3 hours overtime because i'd be slow but not the case! and i didn't even break out into a sweat. well i'm kinda tired so i'm gonna go hit the hay! ciao!

stressin

i hate stressin. i'm worried about work cus i still haven't learned my new job and i almost wanna just say put me back on my old line. only 3 weeks and 6 days till christmas break! can't wait!!!

just plain over it

there comes a point when you choose to either take the right or the left fork in the road we call life. tonight was miserable for me, i disagree with tom on a lot of things he says and i get tired of the cracks about how we are just like the old church now in the way we are doing things except that we aren't there all day till midnight. yeah we are boring now! and the vulgarity of things he says like the circumsision description. it's just getting really old, i think i might visit moms church next sunday night. i don't know yet. well i'm done ranting and raving. ciao

they don't call it black friday for nothing...

black friday such a fitting name. i was an idiot and decided to go to target for the sales cus they had a leapfrog thing that mom wanted and they had sanite noah and maddies presents on sale and i had others gifts that i was getting from there so i was getting all my christmas shopping done and on sale cus i'm poor! haha. but it was crazy i didn't dress warm and i got there about 5:15 they didn't open till 6. well i ended up in line i was standing at the back of the target buildingand by the time the line had started moving and i was just getting ready to go inside the line had gone into the parking lot and all the way down to best buy, i was pushed and shoved more than a wrestler!! i ended up standing in line to check out for an hour and a half. i was soo tired cus i hadn't gone to bed yet and so amanda helped me make thanksgiving dinner and dad grilled the chicken to. i will never go again! haha. well the casewells are here so i'm gonna hangout.! ciao!

fiesta menyana

that's not the correct spelling but hey it works! translation party tommorow! mom and dad are busy putting up the tree and stuff and i've been feeding them haha, i woke up early and sat on the couch waiting for the lazy heads to get up. finally about 9 they got up well i started to get hungry so i made some cinnamon rolls and they gobbled them up! i had made some broccoli casserole for a pitch in at work yesterday and had about half left. they just got done eating some of that well i had got some lil smokies and cresent rolls and tommorow while i was cooking i figured i'd make pigs in a blanket and they could snack on them, mom wanted me to go ahead and make them so i have them in the oven right now and dad was drooling over them! haha. i had some lil smokies left over so i threw them in my little crockpot put some hot chipoltle barbeque sauce a smidge of honey and a dash of cinnamon in and it's simmering. of course i haven't eaten any of this stuff but i enjoy making stuff for mom and dad. i'm cooking thanksgiving tommorow, mom just found an ornament from grandmas house and she gave it to me it's a picture with grandma and grandpa. it's hard this time of year. dad just sniffed and said don't forget your cooking, he's drooling for the pigs in blankets haha.

confused

well i know it's been awhile since i updated but i've been very busy with work and attempting to get some sleep. i'm so glad we only work till wednesday. i'm at a crossroad right now as far as the church goes. i want to stay there for cortney but it's not healthy for me, mom and them want me to go to manville but i don't wanna go there it's to far and not what i'm looking for. so as you can see i have some hard decicions to make. i just don't know, i really really don't wanna leave cortney but it gets harder an harder every week to go there, i feel like i need a breather i geuss not from church but from our church and i have no where to go really. because i know that my family likes manville but a big church is not for me, like with all the people and stuff my nerves would be going haywire. it's just good weeks and bad weeks and it's nothing that any one person has done or not done or whatever i just feel empty and maybe it's just me and not the church maybe i've lost touch in my spiritual life i mean i defineletly need to study and pray more so that could be it. i just feel like i need a breather and a chance to step back and really focus on whats gonna be right for me and i still have to think about other people to, i don't know. i do know something needs to change. but like i said it very well could just be me and really i hope that's what it is, but i need to figure that out and i just don't know how i can. i'm just really frustrated this may seem outa the blue but i've been thinking for a long time that there was something not right or that i'm missing something maybe it's my life. i don't know. i do know that i am very very frustrated about the whole tattoo thing that i'm not allowed to get anymore and i understand and i won't until i move out but it just makes me wanna move out just for that reason, and that's not a healthy good choice, i can't afford it right now anyways. i know noone understands about my rememberance tattoo for grandma but i know that it would be such a release for me. but i like i said will obey my parents in that as well as everything else. well i hope no one is mad or anything at me but i needed to get all this off my chest i really need to get my therapy going every week again.