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well i woke up early in order to clean the bathroom and i got done and so i'm kinda checking my email and updating this then i need to take a shower then i geuss i'll cook some homeade pizza for lunch/dinner/breakfast, whats been happenin... hmm i dunno let see at work, mindy came over to my line yesterday before we started working and she asked how things were and i explained a few things on my line that could be improved, and she started to go and check out my line but i was like no~ i don't wanna get in trouble. so she's gonna explain it to the guy thats doing our line making changes and stuff. i think the batteries are dying in the keyboard so g2g,

for your info

well for some reason a lot of people seem to think i'm missing something in my life or that i'm not happy, i just want to set the record straight, i'm not missing anything in my life AT THIS POINT and i'm very happy. mindy came to me today and said hey look theres a guy i work with that is single and i thought you two would be perfect (paraprhasing of course) i'm like uhh ok.... she continues on to say that he is 40!!!!!!!!!!! hello!!!!!!!!!!! i know she means well but come on. i just smiled and nodded my head thinking crazy!! then on monday betty tried to hook me up with her 22 year old nephew i smiled and said no thanks, she wasn't to happy about that but she got over it. beth tried to hook me up with a friend of hers who happens to be 36. what is wrong with people?!?!?! my life is not defined by having a man in my life. now that's not to say that as i get older i'll start to think about it, but i just wish people would stop trying to hook me up. i love my life i don't have any interests in getting married right now or anything, i just want to enjoy my freedom so to speak. meaning financial and not having to plan around another persons schedule and everything. well just thought i'd let everyone know that i am happy with my life and the path its going on, mom's helping me with my debt then i'm moving out and who knows what? i'd really like a child at some point but i realized that's way to hard with me working nights because it was a hassle just dealing with pip while the rents were gone amanda had to stay and help me! i mean come on!! haha. but i'm taking it one day at a time. and just being thankful for every breath!

update

well it's been a good long while since i updated so i assume everyone is through with their withdrawl symptoms... lol. not much happenin, i went and bought some work sweats the other day and they just don't work out at work so i took the pink pair back and exchanged it for a pair of work jeans at cato (they are having a really good sale right now) in sweats i went down 4 pants sizes and in jeans i went down 3. my numbers aren't moving as fast but i'm still losing weight and i think i'm gaining some muscle. we did good last night at work we actually got done at 1:15 and had to stand around and clean for 15 mins.and i was on cables so that should show that i can hold my own on them things. hahaha. as far as anything else goes, i geuss everythings ok mom and dad are in canada and i'm missing them, see i have horrid time managment cus i should be cleaning up the house right now but i did the bathroom and am procrastinating on the others. haha well ciao! or adios amigos!

update

well it's been a few days since i updated, i've really got to figure out a way to get some sleep on the weekends because like saturday i only got like 5 hours and boom i was up for the rest of the day until late that night and then sunday i could barely keep my eyes open so i tried to stay awake and ended up falling asleep so i missed night service there was going to be food there to . bummer. but i don't know how to get it together, well this is going to be a long week i think, yesterday we were all going so slow it was like we just couldn't get into gear we still got out kinda early we got off at 2:30 i dunno. we'll see how it goes tonight. welp better go.

halfway there

well, i just stopped to take a break from cleaning i cleaned the bathroom and threw away a ton of clothes and just seperated my clean from my dirty clothes so i'm gonna get the vacuum and get the spider webs and stuff then i just have to pick a few things up and sweep and mop the floor.well i better get back to it. ciao!

got off early again

yep we got out in 8.25 hours, which is cool although i'll ve feeling it with the paycheck, our bonus is 1300 that's for a period of 6 months, so since i haven't been there for 6 months i won't get the whole thing it'll be prorated something like 600 dollars ish, i s what i think i'll get. hey i'll be happy with a 100! haha, we get it like the 13 or something next month, so glad! i'll probly put it in the bank for safe keeping, like open a seperate account with part of it and buy my fla plane ticket with the other, i get 6 days vacation this year, which 5 i have to take in july for shutdown but that's ok, i'l not sure what i'll do with the other day, but whatever! ok now i'm seriously thinking that everytime i do cables something is going to happen, well today was my day to do cables and whouldn't you know it someone didn't show up on the sub line so they pulled beth off mainline and gave us someone else, so i had to do cables and build my 2 least favorite things to do! haha, but oh well, tommorow i'll be back on brackets thank goodness. we have to deal with tony all day tommorow cus alicia is going to be off. he gets really annoying when she isn't there. i'm just glad i'm not doing cables then cus tony would drive me bonkers! he wouldn't stop telling me i was doing a great job today except he used a curse word but anyways he doesn't compliment anyone else so i geuss i'm doing good, i just smile and say thanks or well i'm just doing my best. and to think they didn't wanna hire me in the first place.... i just wanna go up to the guy who said he wanted me to have factory experience and say haha there! i'm not so bad after all!!! well that's all from me tonight i promise this weekend i will post those websites for who's running for prez i completly forgot about it but i'll do it this weekend, i think i wanna take myself out this weekend.... hmm where to.... any suggestions??

ADD

you know it's been i think a year now since we found out that there really was an issue with me and not that i'm just a crazy kid, it's been a long hard road finding out what that something is, it's been over a year in trying to figure it out but mom decided we needed to know no matter how long it took or how much it cost, i'm very grateful to my parents for all their help with my add, i mean they took it like soldiers it's not the easiest thing to hear your child has any kind of problem wether it be autism add or anything like that. i have been doing a lot of thinking from when i first started my therapy and to where i'm at now, wow what a huge difference! i had this huge list and it's dwindling down now, it's very exciting. i'm realizing that i am way more indepent than i ever thoght possible, i mean i think that's what i was meant to be like there's matt who is too independent, than amanda who isn't very independent and then i think i'm more in the middle, but i used to not be independent at all, those of you who grew up with me, would definelently agree. like the whole church thing, i wanted to make my own decision and it was a tough one but i made the best decision for me, and it feels great i used to not be able to make my own decisions i would just suffer, but anyways i need to go to work now and so i geuss i'll talk to you all later ciao!