another

it has been a crazy week and i just can't seem to keep up with everything, i'm letting the bathroom heat up so i can take my shower and then go to bed but i have to be up at 11am cus i have a ton of errands and stuff and i have to be to work an hour earlier tommorow,i did have kinda a breakdown at work cus i have a lot of pressure on me now that ashley is gone and i'm really tired cus i am not sleeping good on the plus side i lost a few more pounds, but anyways i just got so tired and so frustrated that i wasn't going as fast as i wanted on the cables and a few tears started to roll down my cheeks but i was getting control of myself, until david comes over and asks if i'm ok. then i just ran off the line and bawled for like 5 seconds. but i recovered and no one was the wiser except for the guys on my line, and yes i'm taking my meds everyday like i'm sposed to i just sometimes need a break and so i'm glad for the weekend, they just told me today that they were sending david to another area and we were getting a guy from dayshift and apparently he knows everything on that line and i think he's hispanic it's hard to tell from his little picture cus he's smiling real big and he kinda looks asian cus he is kinda lighter skined. i dunno. but i have mixed feelings about him coming over, i'm glad cus now i will be able to relax cus i won't be the only one who knows every machine, but i'm worried that he's gonna be super fast and i'm gonna be really slow compared to him and i'm gonna lose my job, it's tough right now cus they are firing a lot of people. temps right now but i just hope i'm doing a good enough of a job. alicia is just a bear right now and i think it has a lot to do with her milking this prego thing she's only 6 weeks, it shouldn't make her this mean and irritable yet. but what do i know? i miss being able to talk to mom cus she's been gone for like 2 weeks and we've barely seen each other. she knows how to calm me down and stuff so i don't freak out. well i'm tired and so i better take my shower now while i still have the energy. ciao