sigh

if you could hear it you would hear a really huge sigh, it's been such a stressful week and it's not even over yet. i hate packing. i've been putting it off as much as possible. but it doesn't work. friday is the day the last day to clean and pack. i have to be up super early tommorow cus we have to be in to work an hour earlier since we are off friday, and i have ubber amounts of errands to do. i have to go sign the lease and give one of the original keys back to the landlord, and i have to go get a few things for the apartment, and i'm gonna try to go early enough to help clean, i should'nt even be up still and blogging cus i have to take a shower but oh well i can't help it. i need to destress, this is sooo much at once, i can feel it all finnally taking its toll, i've been to the apartment last night and tonight to drop stuff off, i took a vacuum over the first night and then some waters i stuck in the fridge for mom and sis tommorow, cus they are sooo sweet and they are going to clean it for me, i feel sooo bad that i can't help, but i have to work. and i have to sleep. i've been really moody these last 2 days i almost startted crying like 3 times tonight and i think it's cus i'm really moving, it's a huge change and change as we all know is sooo diffucult for me. and i don't have therapy till the 10th, boy is she gonna be suprised, i got lost my first time going to the apartment when i dropped off the vacuum which was awful luging it up the stairs, i would love it if dad could bring either his camera or the digital to take a few pics to post up here, i do live in a really good neighborhood, so i'm lucky i live on the other side of town in the downtown area, which is a lot better. i'm gonna have to carry a flashlight with me or something to get in my apartment cus the lights in the hallway are never on, one is burnt out. so that has to be replaced. i'm afraid it's gonna bother my neighbors, but it is pitch black and scary not being able to see up the stairs, i'll be fine if i have a flashlight. ace hardware is having that going out of buisness sale so mom got me a ton of stuff from there thanks mom! she has been awesome throught this whole thing, i'm not sure wether i'm gonna stay over on saturday night or wait till sunday so i don't have to get up ubber early to get to chruch. i'm gonna be so poor for awhile it stinks! i better make sure i have enough clean undies and socks and stuff for a whole week till i can bring it back to wash here on saturdays. i'm dreading the move, did i mention that my apartment is upstairs?!?! well i better go take a shower and lay my clothes out for work and go to bed, ciao!