bored

well i'm bored to death! getting ready to go to my rents

bah

blah, that's how i feel, just blah the stress has just leveled me out to where i feel blah... well that's all i can write for now cus i gotta go make my lunch and tea. ciao!

another

well just another quick boring nothing to say update.. haha. with the new jobs i'm doing at work i'm gaining muscle in my right arm and not my left. i'm gonna look freakish if i'm not careful!! they've got me doing springs,rivet gun/screw gun,cables. the springfs are the worst cus i have to litterally run from machine to machine to barely keep up. i keep telling them they are retarted for putting the fat grl on the running job, now i know why the guy that used to do it before always drank energy fdrinks but i don't cus they don't help, i just have noe stamina i'm running for probly 5 our of 8 hours at work, i's a tough ju=ob my face gets red and sweaty and i mean no words do it justice!!! anywho i just got done with my laundry and am now heading to bed, so ciao!

glam or not?

when you grow up it seems so glamorous and awesome but no one warns you that when you live away from your hometown and are broke and can't go home how boring it is, i haven't left this apartment except to go to church and it's boring filled with oldies but its so anxiety filledgoing to a new church i just need some time like at one church. i'm bored crazy!! at least if i was at moms i'd have peeps to talk to and stuffplus with dad bein gone i bet moms missin him. plus i miss the comfort of the church i already know.just hate adjusting to new stuff but i have to. anywho i geuss i'll go sit and watch some mo tv.. and be bored.... haha ciao!

clean

well i got everything done that i wanted to get done. vaccummed laundry cleaned all that good stuff. i'm just hanging out watching tv. being bored but i need to take a shower and shave and all that annoying stuff. i done made cookies and gave to dez for her moms bday, washed dishes and trust me there was a ton! i'm thinking of making some broccolli caserole, but hate to cus i don't have a proper way of reheating the leeftover and don't know how to make just a single serving. i geuss i won't. well i better continue my boredom. ciao!

work?? por que??

work?? why must we work?? oh trhats right cus we like to eat and have a roof over our head. work is getting worse and worse.. tonight everything that went wrong did and then some it's one of those nights that machines break down and you are constantly whacking yourself witha part smashing your finger dropping stuff.. that's my night i'm honestly suprised i have any fingers left... haha j/k. well i plan on cleaning right this moment so i can enjoy a relaxing work free weekend! ciao!

the church

well i'm sure your all dying to know how the church was that i went to so here it is, i would've posted it sooner but my electryictiy was out for about 24 hours... arg! haha. ok so i chose the restoration christian center. it was craazy filled with old people. so ddn't like it it was some old guy for a preacher and that's not what i'm looking for so i think i'm gonna try out community christian church out this sunday. doen't sound to promisingbut we'll see. it's like 1 street away from my street so that's cool. i'm broke so that's why i'm not coming up this or last weekend. but thats the price you pay living on your own. uhh i'm tired and ready for bedi've got all the makins for a proper tamale for pa but don't know when i'll get back down there to make it for him. miss ya guys! well i'm gonna head off here now. and just sit and watch tv and them go to bed.

heart attack

oh man i just about had a heart attack cus i'm sittin here checkin my email and i hear someone go hey! and start knocking on my door, i was like what?? i went to the door and said who is it, no one answereed it was some guy and he's like oh wrong door he was wanting the neighbors, but phew i was scared, good thing i havce three locks on my door! i'm going to try out a new church tommorow, i'm really excited! hopefully there will be someone i know or recognize that i maybe go to work with there. i've got to clean house it's such a dissaster. i'm getting ready to take a shower here in a few mins. i'm not coming home this weekend so hopefully mom and sis do ok. i love you guys i just don't have the extra money this check to come down there, gas is going up up up!!! i went to bed early last night and so now i'm up early, arg! haha. well i better go ahead and take my shower! adios!

quickie

well just thought i'd post a wuickie before i went to bed, not a lot to say stopped my walmart and picked up a few groceries after work so i don't starve before payday. haha. i have therapy tommorow and i have to do laundry i need to clean u pthe house a little bit to. well i geuss that's all. hope everyone enjoyed my crazy pics! haha ciao!

pics

ok that's my ocd toilet cute though right?? thats me like 20 mins ago i look like crazzy! and the other chick is my friend heather.

still

yep i'm still awake and not going down anytime soon, haha i've got a pic of my bathroom or rather my toilet i'm gonna try to put up on here cus this is how i keep my tp, haha ocd? jk! and maybe a few misc pics. i've gotten very camera friendly lately.. haha! well i just got done in the kitchen, i made tamales for dad and chris to try, they are different from the first batch i had to use just plain chicken breast that i browned up and shredded and so i put just green sauce and chicken no cheese this time but it should be good still see that's how most mexicans make tamales. i also made some extra for tyler i'll steam them in the morning and i'll put them in the fridge at church and all he'll have to do is unwrap them and pop them in the microwave to warm then up, i'm bringing my steamer so i can steam dads fresh. i made some pb&j uncrustables and stuck one in a bag so i have 4 for this week for lunch at work already in bags on a plate in the fridge handy? i know!! haha. sis could save a lotta money making uncrustables for chris for work. they are the same thing! haha anywho. brr its cold in here so i best turn off my air. ok oh yeah i also am doing an experiment in my bread machine with pumpkin purree, i made dough like usual but adding pumpkin,nutmeg,and cinnamon, hope it's good, it smells good! well i can't think of what else to say so ciao!

uhh

well, i went to bed at like 1030 so i'm wide awake now so i geuss i'll cook something. i'm so bored just trying to pass the time till it's time to leave for mom and pops. i'm not sure how this change in sleep schedule is going to affect me tommorow.i feel like i haven't talked to anyone in awhile. looking forward to talking to dad last time i was down we didn't hardly talk. i'm making tamales for him cus last week they didn't get to eat them. bummer!

bLAH

well i'm kinda trying to wind myself down so i can go to sleep cus i gotta get up early tommorow, i gotta go get my license and get to work early and start working early so we aren't there till 3 haha, i want my weekend to start as soon as possible!and i need to clean up the kitchen. so not looking forward to that! haha. so i gotta get up about 12:30 i'll probly take a shower and shave tonight so i don't have to worry about it. haha. well ciao!

last blog

well i had a whole blog wrote on that last one but for ome reason it didn't post it only the title and didn't feel l ike posting another one. i stayed home from work today i just feel so run down and i've had a mild fever the last 2 days, but i had a drs appt set up for a couple weeks now for an annual checkup with my gyno and didn't wanna cancel. i just figured i should start getting annual checkups it was awful i just laid there and cried i don't wanna do it again but i know i need to. amanda you need to to! now i know why u hated them mom. awful. i was watching gilmore grls tonight and i just wanted to say a few things to my mom. i know it seems like i don't need you but it's soo not true i need you but i'm trying not to need you, i don't know if that makes sense i dunno. i love you super super much and my first night here i just cried myself to sleep cause i didn't wanna move and be by myself i wanted to stay in the comfort of the house, it gets so lonely sometimes and it seems like i don't wanna be down there on the weekends and it's only because i have to go home to an empty house and if i'm not having a good time or connecting with ya'll then it doesn't hurt as much, but i realized it's super unhealthy. and hurtful to you and i'm so sorry cus the last thing i want to do is hurt you. i love you mommy. the reason gilmore grls sparked that is cus i watched the 7th season so sad. well i g2g and take a nice shower and clean up the living room and my room.

tired