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well i woke up early in order to clean the bathroom and i got done and so i'm kinda checking my email and updating this then i need to take a shower then i geuss i'll cook some homeade pizza for lunch/dinner/breakfast, whats been happenin... hmm i dunno let see at work, mindy came over to my line yesterday before we started working and she asked how things were and i explained a few things on my line that could be improved, and she started to go and check out my line but i was like no~ i don't wanna get in trouble. so she's gonna explain it to the guy thats doing our line making changes and stuff. i think the batteries are dying in the keyboard so g2g,

for your info

well for some reason a lot of people seem to think i'm missing something in my life or that i'm not happy, i just want to set the record straight, i'm not missing anything in my life AT THIS POINT and i'm very happy. mindy came to me today and said hey look theres a guy i work with that is single and i thought you two would be perfect (paraprhasing of course) i'm like uhh ok.... she continues on to say that he is 40!!!!!!!!!!! hello!!!!!!!!!!! i know she means well but come on. i just smiled and nodded my head thinking crazy!! then on monday betty tried to hook me up with her 22 year old nephew i smiled and said no thanks, she wasn't to happy about that but she got over it. beth tried to hook me up with a friend of hers who happens to be 36. what is wrong with people?!?!?! my life is not defined by having a man in my life. now that's not to say that as i get older i'll start to think about it, but i just wish people would stop trying to hook me up. i love my life i don't have any interests in getting married right now or anything, i just want to enjoy my freedom so to speak. meaning financial and not having to plan around another persons schedule and everything. well just thought i'd let everyone know that i am happy with my life and the path its going on, mom's helping me with my debt then i'm moving out and who knows what? i'd really like a child at some point but i realized that's way to hard with me working nights because it was a hassle just dealing with pip while the rents were gone amanda had to stay and help me! i mean come on!! haha. but i'm taking it one day at a time. and just being thankful for every breath!

update

well it's been a good long while since i updated so i assume everyone is through with their withdrawl symptoms... lol. not much happenin, i went and bought some work sweats the other day and they just don't work out at work so i took the pink pair back and exchanged it for a pair of work jeans at cato (they are having a really good sale right now) in sweats i went down 4 pants sizes and in jeans i went down 3. my numbers aren't moving as fast but i'm still losing weight and i think i'm gaining some muscle. we did good last night at work we actually got done at 1:15 and had to stand around and clean for 15 mins.and i was on cables so that should show that i can hold my own on them things. hahaha. as far as anything else goes, i geuss everythings ok mom and dad are in canada and i'm missing them, see i have horrid time managment cus i should be cleaning up the house right now but i did the bathroom and am procrastinating on the others. haha well ciao! or adios amigos!

update

well it's been a few days since i updated, i've really got to figure out a way to get some sleep on the weekends because like saturday i only got like 5 hours and boom i was up for the rest of the day until late that night and then sunday i could barely keep my eyes open so i tried to stay awake and ended up falling asleep so i missed night service there was going to be food there to . bummer. but i don't know how to get it together, well this is going to be a long week i think, yesterday we were all going so slow it was like we just couldn't get into gear we still got out kinda early we got off at 2:30 i dunno. we'll see how it goes tonight. welp better go.

halfway there

well, i just stopped to take a break from cleaning i cleaned the bathroom and threw away a ton of clothes and just seperated my clean from my dirty clothes so i'm gonna get the vacuum and get the spider webs and stuff then i just have to pick a few things up and sweep and mop the floor.well i better get back to it. ciao!

got off early again

yep we got out in 8.25 hours, which is cool although i'll ve feeling it with the paycheck, our bonus is 1300 that's for a period of 6 months, so since i haven't been there for 6 months i won't get the whole thing it'll be prorated something like 600 dollars ish, i s what i think i'll get. hey i'll be happy with a 100! haha, we get it like the 13 or something next month, so glad! i'll probly put it in the bank for safe keeping, like open a seperate account with part of it and buy my fla plane ticket with the other, i get 6 days vacation this year, which 5 i have to take in july for shutdown but that's ok, i'l not sure what i'll do with the other day, but whatever! ok now i'm seriously thinking that everytime i do cables something is going to happen, well today was my day to do cables and whouldn't you know it someone didn't show up on the sub line so they pulled beth off mainline and gave us someone else, so i had to do cables and build my 2 least favorite things to do! haha, but oh well, tommorow i'll be back on brackets thank goodness. we have to deal with tony all day tommorow cus alicia is going to be off. he gets really annoying when she isn't there. i'm just glad i'm not doing cables then cus tony would drive me bonkers! he wouldn't stop telling me i was doing a great job today except he used a curse word but anyways he doesn't compliment anyone else so i geuss i'm doing good, i just smile and say thanks or well i'm just doing my best. and to think they didn't wanna hire me in the first place.... i just wanna go up to the guy who said he wanted me to have factory experience and say haha there! i'm not so bad after all!!! well that's all from me tonight i promise this weekend i will post those websites for who's running for prez i completly forgot about it but i'll do it this weekend, i think i wanna take myself out this weekend.... hmm where to.... any suggestions??

ADD

you know it's been i think a year now since we found out that there really was an issue with me and not that i'm just a crazy kid, it's been a long hard road finding out what that something is, it's been over a year in trying to figure it out but mom decided we needed to know no matter how long it took or how much it cost, i'm very grateful to my parents for all their help with my add, i mean they took it like soldiers it's not the easiest thing to hear your child has any kind of problem wether it be autism add or anything like that. i have been doing a lot of thinking from when i first started my therapy and to where i'm at now, wow what a huge difference! i had this huge list and it's dwindling down now, it's very exciting. i'm realizing that i am way more indepent than i ever thoght possible, i mean i think that's what i was meant to be like there's matt who is too independent, than amanda who isn't very independent and then i think i'm more in the middle, but i used to not be independent at all, those of you who grew up with me, would definelently agree. like the whole church thing, i wanted to make my own decision and it was a tough one but i made the best decision for me, and it feels great i used to not be able to make my own decisions i would just suffer, but anyways i need to go to work now and so i geuss i'll talk to you all later ciao!

different

well, i got to work today and we were short 2 people on our line so we borrowed 2 from another line, well one did the pins and the other switched doyle so doyle could do the rivet gun, so i was like oh great doyles going to stand there and tell me to hurry it up or something but he didn't thank goodness see i had to do cables today and it seems like almost everytime i have to do cables something bad happens, but it turned out to be a good night we got out earlier toinght than last week so that's good. my advisor was asking me how i was doing and i'm like good, he said well i hear your doing an awesome job over here, i thought that was cool, then see for our last part of the night we dont' put cables on them so i had to build and betty said that i'm way faster at it than beth is which is true cus when beth builds and i do brackets i always have to stand there and wait for parts, betty didn't have to and i mean we did it in like 1 hour and 15 mins, almost 400 parts. but anyways i'm looking forward to just doing my normal job tommorow hope fully! haha, well i had therapy on monday it went by quick cus i had a lot to talk about and i know i left stuff out. but i'm doing better, i have an appt for thursday, at like 3 i think i put it on my calendar so, well i need to go start laundry i have to go to the thrift shops to try to find some pants ugh not looking forward to it! well night!

i dunno

i duinno this weather is crazy! i'm kinda like uhh cus i have to do cables today but it won't be to bad. i just n eed to remember to breathe i'm anxious to get it over with. haha, well i left the madison church on sunday, and i'm going to manvile now. i still have a lot of stuff at the church building that i wasn't able to grab on sunday cus everyone was rushing out the door, mike tried to take some of my stuff but earl stopped him thank goodness! well i need to go get ready for work.

man!

well i should've been in bed by now but i'm just so frustrated.
i've been trying to research all the canidates for president and i'm sad to say that the favorite of most people not me but a lot of people is obama, how can they accept this person who refuses to say the pledge? he supports gay and lesbians, he supposedly is a man of faith he wants to pull the army out of iraq, he is going to force the auto companies to make a car that uses 80% less gas which that's cool i'm all for the whole not depending on other countries for oil but in order to make these cars they are going to cost more i mean already we have hybrids but no one can afford them! i don't support him at all and it's just so frustrating to me how so many people do. imean in the speeches i've read he doesn't say anything about america like being american and stuff, he wants to close off the borders but give the illegals already here a way to obtain citizenship. will they have to pay taxes? who knows! and what he says about white people? he says that when he addresses white people he smiles and doesn't make any sudden movements, not litterally i mean but basically like he's tiptoeing around us, i'm all for a black president but he's not the right one i'm all for a woman president but hillary isn't the right one. really there is no perfect canidate but some are better than others i geuss, for me it's not a racial thing at all. God loves and created everyone, no matter the color or race or size 3 ft or 7 ft we all were created in his image amazing isn't it? but we have to all get out there and vote and trust in the Lord, He knows what's going on. hope i didn't make anyone mad with this but i just felt like expressing my thoughts and if i did upset anyone tell me and maybe the way i wrote it wasn't what i meant or something that happens to me a lot i'll say something or whatever and it's not what i mean at all.

glad oh warning work talk.

well i'm so glad that the workweek is over even though it was only 3 days long haha! but we are all used to being back to work now and stuff so monday we'll be refreshed. i'm getting a lot faster and more confident in doing the cables. wednesday was rather rough i think just because it was the first day back and production has been really high since dayshift hasn't made production at all so far, and it's not fair see we have to stay until we get all our production done but dayshift doesnt they leave in 8 hours wether they are done or not! plus they leave us with half empty tubs of parts and we've had 50 + bad parts that they made. so we have been having to shut down to get it all sorted and stuff, but anyways wednesday was rough teusday was better. and tonight went good granted we kept haveing issues with day shift parts but we still got out in less then 10 hours. i was flying on them cables to no joke either. i just said to myself that i need to breath and only focus on my job, see i would get frustrated cus i'd look up and see a huge stack of parts waiting on me and everyone on the line would be stopped and staring at me. well that didn't happen at all tonight! woo!!! for our first part i kept up to speed and same with the second one now the third one which theres only 3 different parts that get cables outta the 8 that we do well it totals about 5 or 6 hundred, anyways i was going as fast as i could on the last ones but the others were just faster they of course don't have as many things to do on the parts that i do. well gennerally we get out between 160 and 190 parts an hour, well in 45 mins i had 185 parts done! so proud of myself and i only had 2 bad ones which is really good. and they were still usable they just took the cables off so i could redo it. sometimes the part won't sit right on the machine and if it's off the slightest bit it gets it to tight and that makes it a bad part. but i'm not trying to brag i was just so excited that i was able to do that. see what stinks is that the chick that switches off with me will be off for at least 3 months maternity leave and i'll have to do her job every day.... i wonder who they'll get to come over and help us. see i know almost all her jobs except one but i just switch with louis and it works out. supposedly they are going to make everyone learn how to do cables but i think everyone does except louis. they just aren't fast enough to do it but i'm being forced to get fast enough but i think they need to do that with the others. we were getting a ton of customer calls about this one e ring or something that was missing on parts and which that is louis and christian who takes care of that but anyways tony our advisor said that alicia our team leader needs to start checking them and marking them before putting them on the shelf which she should've been doing that anyways but um she is hardly ever around the line when u need her, she takes a ton of extra smoke breaks and is always in the breakroom when i need her i got so pilled up with parts today, see 1 box holds 8 parts and our rack can only hold 5 boxes ata time before they have to go to the shelf well i hollered and hollered and other people were hollering for alicia to come and take care of the boxes well betty ended up stacking the boxes so there was 10 boxes waitin to be checked well i had just finished the 11th box and was trying to figure out what to do when beth saw tony and hollered for him he was soo mad not at us but because he had to come over and he put the boxes on the floor he was slamming them down and i filled the rack back up again by the time alicia finnally showed up, i dunno if she got in trouble or not but it was ridiculous, i don't have time to stop and worry about having room for the parts because if i stop for even a minute i get backed up. haha trust me it's happened. the only good thing about me doing cables at the end of the night is that i don't have to clean up because by the time i get done it's all being taken care of. haha. well sorry to yack about work but that's all i have to say really haha. ciao!

sigh

well i knew it was going to be bad going back to work after my time off but it stinks major! i was kinda in denial all day yesterday thinking that time was going to somehow go backwards and we'd start all over again. haha! we had a great time in NC. lots of stuff happened. i got sick i think it was our first night there i puked in a resteraunt, then the house had a lot of little steps not a flight of stairs but steps and it hurt my foot real bad.. but it's much much better today.and i only gained 2 pounds! cool! me,mom and sis are planning to go to fla this summer for a week or so and i've dicided on a amount i'd like to lose. i'll put a TRACKER on here. see in july we have shutdown and so i'll be off for 5 days then the weekend of course so mom and sis are going to drive down and stay there and i'll fly when i get off work i'll only stay for a week but mom and sis might stay 2 weeks or so. brr it's cold in here! i'm gonna get off here and put my laundry in the dryer and clean the bathroom. ciao!