almost vaca

haha it's almost vacation time and i can't wait! well last night we had to do our 1500 production and an extra 220 parts i did end up doing cables yesterday but i'm getting faster on them i hate them but i'm getting faster i tried sooo hard to get out of doing them. but it didn't work. but my reasoning was that we had extra parts to get done and if i do cables we won't get out until 5 and maybe not make production we ended up getting it all done and stuff at 4. so that's an improvement.i'm soo tired today i had to get up early so i could go renew my drivers license, ooops my bad! haha. oh well. we heard a rumor that tommorow we aren't running any parts we're just doing inventory i hope thats true cus i'm sposed to do cables again tommorow! haha. well i hope we get out early tonight.we might get a 45 min lunch tommorow!!! well enough of that stuff i don't feel good at all i think i ate something that messed up my stomach. i've got so much to do and haven't done any of it! for vaca. i am going to end up doing all of it on staurday, oh well i got to go now!

exhausted

well it's only teusday and i'm already exhausted! our line was broke down for 3 hours tonight and so we worked till 5 and still didn't make production. oh well whatever! i forgot to go into more detail about my drs visit the other day i had lost 13 pounds since i saw him last and he just kep saying that he was proud of me i've never heard a dr say that he was proud of me but he knows i'm working hard and everything. it's weird sometimes i'll think in my mind oh i weigh this much but then i have to come back to reality and remember that i don't weigh that much anymore it's so nice! as i'm sure some of you have heard i've been getting hit on at work by this mexican he is the one that was helping me with my spanish well i kinda avoid him now. but he's harmless! it's kinda nice to hear someone say that i'm beautiful and stuff like that whether or not i beleve it it's still nice to know. but i'm so excited for vaca! i have soooo much stuff to do and i keep setting my alarm so i'll get up earlier and start working on this stuff but i always hit snooze like this morning for instance i set my alarm for 1 and hit snooze all the way up till 2:35. haha. crazy i can see i'm gonna have to just do everything on saturday, although who has time! oh well i'm gonna start my laundry so i don't end up going to work naky ciao!

well here goes..

haha. well i'm sorry it's been awhile since i last updated i've been so exhausted from work i don't even wanna think about updating. but i'll try and squeeze everything in first off work: well i was moved back to my old line 1042 and am working 12 hour shifts again, it stinks majorly because i had to learn a new job doing cables. well they have one chick that can do the job and they've tried to train everyone else on it but no one can get it, so this one grl has been doing this job everyday and so they are making me do it. but i'm slow at it, not as slow as everyone else that tried it but i'm not quite fast enough. but they are making me do it everyother day. so i'm very mad about that i told them i didn't want to do it but they won't listen. ok so moving on, i went to the doctor like a couple weeks ago for my check up on my blood pressure meds and i've lost 33 pounds my pressure is doing good and that if i continue to lose weight he is going to HAVE to take me off the blood pressure meds. hoping that by summer i'll be off them. well i'm going to bed so ciao! oh wait i forgot. i went to manville today and loved it to pieces! i'm gonna go back again after christmas i'm gonna visit for awhile and make a decision but like i said i love it everyone was so welcoming i just felt the love and the preaching it was so good i was crying ecause i haven't been that spiritually invested in a long time. ok now i'm gonna go to bed!

busy busy

well i just wanted to update real quick, i lost another 3 pounds bringing my total to 33 pounds. i just put my laundry in the dryer and am getting ready to sweep and mop the bathroom and wash the mirrors then it's onto my room, i'll probly only have time to take care of the food issue. then tommorow i can take care of the clothes or something like that. well got to go get busy ciao! oh and i think that i decided what vehicle i wanna get when i pay everything off..... a cadillac escalade white 04. cute!!!

and the award goes to...

melissa! for worst daughter of the year! no i'm sure i'm not the worst but i'm close i was meaning to clean my room because it is a litteral disaster pig sty area thing and it's stressing me out. but i fell asleep and excuses excuses... see with my add i have to have a Calm area to go to when i need alone time and that is my room until i kill myself getting into it. so tommorow i'm getting up early:( and cleaning like really cleaning and keeping it that way so i can destress when i come home from work. since i'm only 8 hours now it's not gonna kill me. i feel really bad because this isn't a first time thing. the biggest part is my clothes, the second is that i get home from work and am hungry so i grab something and take it to my room and then i fall asleep and i'm always running behind the next day so the plates and trash and pop cans and yes even a milk jug get left behind with the promise of i'll deal with it tommorow. bad bad bad bad bad grl! so whenever anyone sees me smack me and tell me to keep my room cleaned up! anyways i was on 1008 again tonight donig more training.... hmmmm..... i think they are planning on keeping me there... who knows.. oh well i got to go start laundry so i don't go to work naky tommorow.. they might frown on that.

sigh of relief

finally the week is over it flew by up until about thursday than work was sooo slow and painful tonight i was back on 1009 my non training line today because someone was sick and didn't show so my back hurts bad from having to bend over constantly on that line, but it's over and i'm glad no more work talk the rest of the weekend have you ever had a really bad craving? well i have been craving grilled cheese this week and i've been meaning to wake up early enough to make me some but haha thats a laugh well i hope i'm not being to loud but i just made me a grilled cheese and am about to sit and enjoy it! so see ya!

spongemel

well, i got to work and found out that i would be over on 1008 again doing more training..... i'm starting to get suspicious that they are trying to move me over there. i started learning 2 different machines on that line to. it's also the last 2 machines and the things i have to check before i put them on the shelf. i'm like ahh! that's why i put spongemel in the title because i'm having to soak stuff up like a sponge. honestly i wouldn't mind being on 1008 cus it's really easy and i can keep up the pace pretty good to. i have been talking to mindy about how i'm feeling spriritually and we've been meeting before work and praying together and it has helped a lot. i am so thankful for her i'm just going to have to make the best of church because 1 or 2 negatives shouldn't outweigh all the positives for me. i do need to make more of an effort to learn something from toms sermons or ramblings... haha jk. well i'm tired even though i got out in 8 hours again tonight and not to mention they uped our production 200 parts from yesterday and we still got it all done and in plenty of time for me train on those 2 machines. well ciao!

different

well tonight at work was different because they were crosstraining me on another line see i've been on 1009 but they crosstrained me on 1008 on cables. i was worried that i wouldn't be able to keep up because the people on that line are fast but i had very few problems and the only time i got behind was if my machine got stuck or whatever, by the end of the night i had all my parts done and since i'm the first two machines the other 2 people had probly a good 70 or 80 parts left to finish so i had to kinda twiddle my thumbs cleaning my machine for awhile, we did production but got done an hour early so we did 2 extra boxes and we still got done 30 mins early so we had to clean, but it was ok. tony kept coming over to the line and saying good job, i mean probly 3 or 4 times he came over to check on me and said i was doing an awesome or good job. then when i was headed to sign out he and my old team leader were down a lil ways in the aisle talking and he gave me a thumbs up and said i did a great job tonight, and i was like thanks, and i was standing there waiting to sign out and they were looking at me and talking and smiling and they were talking about me i was like ya'll better quit talking about me! haha. it was nice to know that i'm doing a good job, i expected us to have to work like2 or 3 hours overtime because i'd be slow but not the case! and i didn't even break out into a sweat. well i'm kinda tired so i'm gonna go hit the hay! ciao!

stressin

i hate stressin. i'm worried about work cus i still haven't learned my new job and i almost wanna just say put me back on my old line. only 3 weeks and 6 days till christmas break! can't wait!!!

just plain over it

there comes a point when you choose to either take the right or the left fork in the road we call life. tonight was miserable for me, i disagree with tom on a lot of things he says and i get tired of the cracks about how we are just like the old church now in the way we are doing things except that we aren't there all day till midnight. yeah we are boring now! and the vulgarity of things he says like the circumsision description. it's just getting really old, i think i might visit moms church next sunday night. i don't know yet. well i'm done ranting and raving. ciao

they don't call it black friday for nothing...

black friday such a fitting name. i was an idiot and decided to go to target for the sales cus they had a leapfrog thing that mom wanted and they had sanite noah and maddies presents on sale and i had others gifts that i was getting from there so i was getting all my christmas shopping done and on sale cus i'm poor! haha. but it was crazy i didn't dress warm and i got there about 5:15 they didn't open till 6. well i ended up in line i was standing at the back of the target buildingand by the time the line had started moving and i was just getting ready to go inside the line had gone into the parking lot and all the way down to best buy, i was pushed and shoved more than a wrestler!! i ended up standing in line to check out for an hour and a half. i was soo tired cus i hadn't gone to bed yet and so amanda helped me make thanksgiving dinner and dad grilled the chicken to. i will never go again! haha. well the casewells are here so i'm gonna hangout.! ciao!

fiesta menyana

that's not the correct spelling but hey it works! translation party tommorow! mom and dad are busy putting up the tree and stuff and i've been feeding them haha, i woke up early and sat on the couch waiting for the lazy heads to get up. finally about 9 they got up well i started to get hungry so i made some cinnamon rolls and they gobbled them up! i had made some broccoli casserole for a pitch in at work yesterday and had about half left. they just got done eating some of that well i had got some lil smokies and cresent rolls and tommorow while i was cooking i figured i'd make pigs in a blanket and they could snack on them, mom wanted me to go ahead and make them so i have them in the oven right now and dad was drooling over them! haha. i had some lil smokies left over so i threw them in my little crockpot put some hot chipoltle barbeque sauce a smidge of honey and a dash of cinnamon in and it's simmering. of course i haven't eaten any of this stuff but i enjoy making stuff for mom and dad. i'm cooking thanksgiving tommorow, mom just found an ornament from grandmas house and she gave it to me it's a picture with grandma and grandpa. it's hard this time of year. dad just sniffed and said don't forget your cooking, he's drooling for the pigs in blankets haha.

confused

well i know it's been awhile since i updated but i've been very busy with work and attempting to get some sleep. i'm so glad we only work till wednesday. i'm at a crossroad right now as far as the church goes. i want to stay there for cortney but it's not healthy for me, mom and them want me to go to manville but i don't wanna go there it's to far and not what i'm looking for. so as you can see i have some hard decicions to make. i just don't know, i really really don't wanna leave cortney but it gets harder an harder every week to go there, i feel like i need a breather i geuss not from church but from our church and i have no where to go really. because i know that my family likes manville but a big church is not for me, like with all the people and stuff my nerves would be going haywire. it's just good weeks and bad weeks and it's nothing that any one person has done or not done or whatever i just feel empty and maybe it's just me and not the church maybe i've lost touch in my spiritual life i mean i defineletly need to study and pray more so that could be it. i just feel like i need a breather and a chance to step back and really focus on whats gonna be right for me and i still have to think about other people to, i don't know. i do know something needs to change. but like i said it very well could just be me and really i hope that's what it is, but i need to figure that out and i just don't know how i can. i'm just really frustrated this may seem outa the blue but i've been thinking for a long time that there was something not right or that i'm missing something maybe it's my life. i don't know. i do know that i am very very frustrated about the whole tattoo thing that i'm not allowed to get anymore and i understand and i won't until i move out but it just makes me wanna move out just for that reason, and that's not a healthy good choice, i can't afford it right now anyways. i know noone understands about my rememberance tattoo for grandma but i know that it would be such a release for me. but i like i said will obey my parents in that as well as everything else. well i hope no one is mad or anything at me but i needed to get all this off my chest i really need to get my therapy going every week again.

update

well, tony came over to me last night and said that if i could learn the last 2 jobs on that line then i could stay there so last night melissa the team leader there was training me on how to do it, it's a lot of responsibility because you are the one who checks it and puts it in the box ready for shipment, ahh!!! well at first i was wondering if tony just thought i couldn't do it and i would have to go back to my old line or if he had faith in me. i'm not sure which, last night the parts i did were the easiest parts of them all so today is going to be the true test, but tony came over there last night while i was working on the last two machines and just watched for a while and then said well i think you found a new home melissa. so i'm over there now, which alicia my old team leader isn't happy about and doyle was complaining to my new team leader that they need me down there. haha. now that i'm not down there they decide i'm good enough to be needed over there. the trick is pedro has been out on vaca monday and tuesday and that's why i was over there, he is very fast and so i hope i can keep up but now is the perfect time to learn because we are staying till 4:30 everynight even though we can get done in 8 hours we are trying to build up our parts, for thanksgiving. well i have to go get dressed and leave so wish me luck! ciao

the monday blues

well it started out as a weird monday, me and mom were tired and slept in! i almost was late for work cus i slept in a lil to much, well i made my lunch and headed to work tried to wait for mindy but i had to pee and was running outta time so i just went on in i don't know if she went today or not. at our meeting before work we found out our line was getting 2 new hires, and we were like 2? we don't need 2. well soli the mexican grl i fight over the fan with is going to days on monday!!!!! yay!!! haha. i worked on my line for about 45 mins till the new hires showed up and one learned my job and the other learned how to build. so i was told i would go weld for awhile, well tony stood over at the end of the line deliberating and i knew that i was going to learn something new, well suprise suprise when alicia said i was to go to line 1009 we are 1042, it's the same dept just down the aisle, well i was sooo mad cus i wasn't sure wat they did over there it's a small line with 6 machines, so there was an elderly lady doing the first two they put me on the second two and hosea the mexican who is teaching me spanish was on th elast two, it was an easy job first machine i put in two pins and a plate on there and they were screwed on or whatever then i take the plate thing and on the next maching i put on springs, well the springs are hard to do and they hurt my thumb! but it was easier then the main line i'm usually on. i let it known that i liked it best there, and i did fine over there to kept up the pace and made good parts it was just so less stressful! i told the team leader of that line and my normal team leader and my advisor i liked there better so maybe i'll stay there...... i doubt it though. i was supposed to go back to my line at some point in the night but there team leader wouldn't give me up haha. she joked that she was going to keep me there. were going to be working late everyday this week and part of next week cus we are still expected to ship out the same amount of parts on wednesday 2 weeks worth. ahh! haha. i'm hoping and praying that i can stay on 1009, well mom and dad are up now so i geuss i'll go and talk to them and stuff. so ciao!

tatoo

well as you all know i have a semi rainbow butterfly on my right arm, well i know that mom has really been wanting me to cover it up and i realize that i do need to do that. i feel like it's almost holding me back everytime i look at it. it'll be the one last thing to do before i've compltley closed my teenage mistakes. i'm gonna check my bills and stuff and if i have the money i'm gonna go and see about getting it fixed tommorow. i kinda wanted it to be a suprise for mom but then i thought that i should make sure it's ok with her first. so mom voice yourself now or forever hold your peace haha. as much as i am ready to get it fixed cus it truly is ugly i think. it's gonna hurt, and bad. but i geuss that's what i get huh!?!? i don't wanna go alone though but everyone else is gonna be gone i thought about asking dad but figured he'd not want to do that. if anyone wants to go with me i'll wait till next weekend or something, i think its cool to watch but not when it's me in the chair haha. i've heard a lot of good things about the madtown ink in madison i think it's by the unemployment office and that's where i'm gonna go get it done, i mean it won't take more than probly 20 or 30 mins, maybe if mom and sis get back early tommorow... who knows well i'm headin to bed. adios amigas/amigos. for some: asta menyana i so know that's not how it is spelled but it's see you tommorow in spanish, i'm learning tons from my coworkers. speaking of coworkers there is one young mexican guy that for probly 6 out of the 8 hours is at the machine right next to mine and he doesn't know my name well i get tired of them yelling hey and whistling to get my attention not the whoo whoo whistle, but anyways we had just finished one part and i was getting the brackets out for the next part well he whistled to get my attention and asked if that was the last one of course he doesn't speak like barely any english, but it was annoying so i said , louis, i have a name! and he looked at me like i was crazy and so i said again that i do have a name it's melissa. so he repeated my name and we moved on then like 5 mins later he said meeleesa and so it's a tough name but he got it finally. i'll teach them boys some manners one way or another! haha. we'll see if he remembers it though haha. 31 pounds gone. it seems like the scale is dropping but that's it, i mean i notice it in my pants, the new pants i bought when i bought them were a smidge tight and tonight i had to keep pulling them up and boy do i have plumbers butt when i bend down, i mean you see undies but i keep my shirt pulled down it's just i don't realize until it's to late that my pants aren't where they should be. i do wear long shirts and trust me i'm self consicous and am always makeing sure it's pulled down as much as possible.

this goes out to my mom

mom i know you are sooo tired of hearing this and so i really don't think it's enough but i'm sorry for how i acted today. there is no excuse for my behavior i know that you only want the best for me and sometimes i forget and to me i hear attack, but i know your not, i mean for everything that you have given me i should act more respectful towards you and i know i don't always do that. i am sorry from the bottom of my heart. i'm sorry for the attitude and i'm sorry for hurting your feelings. it's a lot for me to take in and process but i know it's hard for you to i forget that things that happen to me don't just affect me but they affect you and dad as well. i wish there was more that i could say because this just feels like it's not enough. please don't give up on me though you have been my rock throughout all this stuff that has happened, i promise to do everything in my power to keep myself in check. i know it seems like the same thing happens over and over again and it does but i'm gonna work harder. i love you and i just want you to know that i appreciate everything you do for me so much.

is my scale right??

i'm just curious if the scale is correct cus if it is it says i've lost another 3 pounds bringing my total to 28 pounds. someone pinch me! no wait i might wither away..... haha jk.

update

well it's been a few days since i updated and i know you all are just waiting in suspense as to what is happening! haha. j/k. well i went to the drs today finnally i have put it off for almost a month, well i sorta wish i hadn't. as you may know i take an antideppressant and an "add" medicine. well i had a somewhat high blood pressure before i started taking the "add" meds, well one of the side effects of it is that it raises your blood pressure so that put me basically over the line so much that i have been told i need to take medicine for that to. i was very much against it i said i've lost 25 pounds already can't we just wait and see after i lose some more weight but he didn't want me to. he asked if my ankles were swollen and i said yes i am standing for 11 or so hours 5 days a week, well he felt my legs and yep i was swollen, he just barley touched them and was like yep. i just figured i was swollen cus of standing up, but that's apparently not the only reason, he told me that the medicine he was gonna give me was also a middle diuretic and would help me to lose the water weight and until he said that i was dead set not gonna take the meds but i laughed and told him he had me at "lose weight" so i need to go fill it up tommorow, but this is just a temporary thing, he wants to see me back in a month and check up on me and if all is going well he said that he wants to see me in the spring and if i am losing weight and my blood pressure is dropping then he'll take me off of it. i have to keep track of it about every 2 or3 days. so i'm gonna pick up a calendar. i am determined to do whatever it takes to lower my blood pressure i know that there are certain foods that can help with that. well me and my swollen legs are tired and going to bed.

chillin

it's friday well technically saturday but i'm soo happy, i can just feel the weight lifting off my shoulders! not gonna talk about work, got done in 8 hours again and i got a 25$ gift certificate for the seymour chamber of commerce buisness. ok enough of that talk! dad put a mouse trap in my room but i fear fred is to smart to be caught. i'll take a broom to him soon enough he's disrupting my sleep. speaking of sleep i only got 3 hours of it last night but was suprisingly energectic. you know i was thinking earlier about how i heard that one of the top 5 things that ages a person most is their job. yep that's right work! i am living proof of that. how you ask? well i got to work and was 20 but by the time i left i was 21! so see when i walked in i was 20 out i was 21. freaky huh?? haha. made that one up myself. well i geuss i better get off here now. ciao!

but "weight"

just one last update then i'm going to bed i just checked and i have hit the halfway mark of my goal for christmas i have lost 25 pounds, i can't believe it! in not quite 2 months. i am so excited! anyways had to share that. night!

sigh

this has been a long week! but its coming to an end thankfully. tonight a miracle happened we got out of work in 8 hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that hasn't happened since i've been there. we are even 88 parts ahead for tommorow. so that's probly about 16 mins we shaved off our time tommorow. it's good. hopefully we can all keep this up. it's way tiring going crazy fast but it's worth it i think. deer are out to get me, i can feel it, if you ever find there "camp" there will be wanted signs with a picture of my car on it posted all over! haha, i saw 4 deer on my way home tonight. 1 was standing on a little hill staring, almost like it was getting ready to charge! but i made it home safely and that's all that counts. i need to take a shower and do laundry so i have a clean shirt tommorow. i hate doin laundry for just one item that i need, i mean i'll do a full load but i hate only needing 1 thing out of that load, i might try to scrounge one up, surely i have one available. i've done laundry twice this week! well for some reason i have a mouse, i've kept food outta there since mom told me to, but it's there, i was hoping if i ignored it it would go away but it hasn't i don't know why.i need to set a trap. well at first i wasn't gonna go to hiriam with the fam then i thought yeah i'll go i don't wanna spend my bday alone. well i had forgot that they were staying the night and i decided that there was no way that i could go i was already giving up sleep friday night but there is no way that i could get any sleep in a hotel room with all of them if i had the money to get my own room then it would be different, cus i could get it as cool as i needed and no noise or anything. but i need to do some cleaning and stuff so it'll be fine. it'll be weird not doing our usual bday dinner but change is good. well i picked a terrible to forget my hoody i got to work and realized i didn't have it and when i got out to my car at 1:45 it was COLD, there was frost all over my car i had to wait awhile to let my car warm up and defrost so i sat there freezing. needless to say i won't be forgetting again! haha, you don't make that mistake twice, i might though. haha j/k. well i geuss it's off to bed and stuff. ciao!

21

well i'll be turning 21 this saturday seems weird considering all the threats of ddo you wanna make to 21 then .... fill in the blank of whatever i didn't do. haha. sometimes i get so mad at myself for not doing what i know needs to be done, like keeping my room clean, and cleaning the bathroom, not hard jobs at all! i think this year is going to be different i'm a grown woman now, and i need to act like it. i've got to set little goals and achieve them that is the key, i tend to look at the whole picture and get so overwhelmed that i think well why bother this is gonna happen or that's gonna happen. i just feel like i'm stuck i'm not sure wat the deal is, do i need to get out of the house? i honestly don't know. right now financially it wouldn't be a good thing. but maybe that's what i need a new start in my own place, but what if its not what i need? who knows! well i g2g to work which is going ok i'm gonna have another big check cus i have so far worked 21 hours overtime and on my last check i worked 22. i still have to days left!

quick

well just gonna update a lil bit right quick. work stinks i'm making good money but it's tough! we've been shorthanded all week and then last night our line was shut down for almost 4 hours
because one of our caulking machines broke, so we didn't make production we were off by like 200 parts which isn't bad considering how much time we lost. speaking of losing things i've lost another 2 pounds bringing my total to 24 pounds, almost half of the 50 i wanna lose before christmas. all right i got to go so i don't be late. ciao!

changing

nobody likes change, but it's always around us, sometimes a big change and sometimes not. my parents and my sister have decided to leave and find a church that they can share their knowledge and stuff at. i have chosen to stay at the church. as difficult as it is to not go with my family especially because that's when i get to see my sister, but i'll get to see her after church. i realized that i am still needed where we are, it's only for cortney that i choose to stay, and that says a lot about how much i love her! because i've had many many problems there but it doesn't matter, when i feel like i'm not able to help anymore i'll probly leave. at first it was kinda weird at church last night but everyone made me feel welcome, well i need to clean the bathroom so ciao!

lil update

well it's a cold and wet day outside just as october should be! haha. i'm getting dressed and stuff cus i have an appt. in louisville at toyota to get an oil change and an automatic transmission flush. well i checked and i lost another 2 pounds bring me to 22 pounds, it's getting slower but i'm still losing.

well....

well.... i geuss with every good comes some bad. i got my check today and i got what i was hoping for a dollar over it actually, i worked 22.5 hours overtime to get it though! haha. then on my way home tonight...... i'm going down the road after scottsburg i don't know what that road is called, but i had turned off my brights because a car was coming well i didn't turn them on right away after that and i geuss in a way that was my mistake. because all of a sudden i see like 4 deer and i swerved to hopefully avoid them cus i couldn't stop in time. but i hit the front daddy deer i mean he was huge! at first glance you'd think it was some guy, but it was a deer. as far as i can tell at 5am it didn't do a whole lotta damage but it did mess up my frame by my headlight, it bent it in or something i dont know. i'm very aggravated about it. haha. oh well. ciao!

better

well things tonight went much better, we had all our people and i learned 2 new machines tonight i like those 2 because they are easier. i'll probly never get to use them though. haha. we get paid tommorow so excited about that! i'm still trying to figure out what to get dad plus i had to wait till i got paid cus i spent it all on work clothes. i think i've got it narrowed down to like 3 different choices. it's sad because it's really late, but hey better late than never. i'm horrible about birthdays i never remember until the last minute. then i'm to poor. haha. but i'm giving him his gift this weekend, not sure what i'm gonna do this weekend. i would like to spend time with the family. well i'm gonna hit the hay.ciao!

memories

memories, i was on my way home last night from work and it was pretty cold outside so i turnedthe heat on and it reminded me of when i was younger and we used to lay in front of the fireplace with hershey. good times!

i forgot

i forgot to mention the most interesting part of my night. i think it was around 11 pm that we heard the tornado sirens go off and we all had to run/walk to our designated areas. we of course have the smallest room in the world to fight a ton of people in. we were packed in like sardines for about 15 mins. turns out a tornado had touched down, we were very lucky. it was really scary cus i haven't had to go for shelter from a tornado since i was a kid. it was crazy if i hadn't been taking my meds i just know i would've cried like a baby. all those people in one hot uncomfortable room. well anyways. night again.

tgiaf

no that's not a misprint i meant to put the a in there. it stands for thank goodness it's almost friday. haha. although i am not to sure as to why i should behappy about that considering i have to get up 2 hours earlier than usual. moms having the house sprayed and i was sposed to do laundry and clean my room yesterday suprise suprise so now i have to do it. but i'm really tired, i geuss i will chillax for awhile than do it. my feet kill! and they stench to. haha well so far i have 12.5 hours of overtime in this week but including tommorow it'll probly be more like 15 hours of overtime. a lot! i had my 30 day eval today. my schoku cho (soka cho) aka advisor said that i'm doing a bleep of a good job so i geuss thats good i think maybe the bleep is an extra good job or something. i dunno. i'm only gonna complain about work in this blog entry cus tommorow after work i don't wanna think about work. but it stinx! haha. oh well good money. well once again it's date weekend! whoho! i think i'm going to take my perty lill self to the roadhouse and to see a movie. that sounds good! i'm getting used to going places myself. my henna didn't last long cus i scrub my arms all day long! i get soo dirty and stinky after work it's ridiculous. no way whats ridiculous is in two and a half hours i can get 650-700 parts welded and my line can only run 320 parts in that same time. horrible! we are going really slow this week. but maybe next week'll be better. well i geuss i better go take care of my stuff. it's probly best i don't even go to bed. although i had a hard time staying awake at work today. anyways. oh yeah there is an elderly lady that doesn't work on my line but in the area and she noticed my green ladies advance shirt and was asking me about it. i either wear disney or christian tshirts to work. and she knows that i act different from anyone else she told me that it was nice to see a young person without such a potty mouth/attitude. well i'm trying to figure out what i can do, so please pray for the situation. plus my team leader and our material handler they notice that i'm not an immature little brat that's only out for themself. well we had just got done sweeping and was putting the parts up that were on the floor when the team leader said to sign out at 4:45 well we had like less than a minute but i continued to finish my job and boom everyone but me and solie were outa there they didn't help clean or anything so i go to get my cooler and i notice a dustpan with a HUGE pile of parts and dirt in it so i asked solie about it and she said to leave it for one of the grls that didn't clean. i said did alicia say that? alicia is our team leader. well i don't know if she understood me or not but i went ahead and asked alicia about it and she said no she didn't say that so i stayed and finished sorting the pile and everyone else but me,alicia,and doyle (matieral handler) were there so i geuss we are now all in trouble for it and we are going to have to wait till the whole line is done with their parts before we start cleaning. i'm getting really aggravated at being lumped in with everone else just like people having problems talking on the cellphone at the wrong time and people leaving 2 and3 mins early for break we all got a verbal warning for the cellphone thing and we now have to wait till we are told like little kids to go to break which i will stand at my machine until time for break even if everyone else is gone cus i can't move on with the parts. but it's really annoying i am trying to go outta my way to help other people and tony my advisor did mention that he saw that during my eval. well i'mreally getting tired so i am going now. ciao!

whew

hmm, well it's been a long week and it's only wednesday! well we have been working super hard this week. we did get a little lucky and instead of 12 hour shifts we work 11 hours. haha. it's gooing to be good money i'm hoping to bring home 1,000 not gross but bring home. but i don't really see that happening. i'm so tired but i've gott to do laundry and clean up my room. so i better go do that. ciao!

long time coming...

well this has been a long time coming 3 days in fact! i haven't updated because i've been to tired to even get in bed! haha. lets just say work is work, we are losing one of the people on our line and i am being moved over to the first job on our line. we are going to start working 12 hour days so anywho. i'm going to torrid tommorow with amanda i'm hungry so i'm going to make some food. ciao!!

hmm

hmm, what should i write about? i don't know really not to much is gonig on anymore, i'm settling into my job, it's going a lot smoother, and we are starting to get out earlier. see originally that was a 8 hour line, they never worked over. then they lost their normal people. we got out about 2:30 last night but i stopped at walmart in scotsburg for some groceries and then got home and couldn't fall asleep. mom got me some specail socks and they help a lot! thanks mom~ well gotta go~

monday morning blues

well i geuss technically it's the monday afternoon blues haha. i just feel as though i haven't had enough sleep. the ren fest was a bust but we didn't know what it was going to be like, it was more like a bunch of people dressed up like zelda, and lotr, and pirates of the carribean. i think the ones that are going to be halfway good are the ren festivals that are at least semi permanent. i'm sad because i don't think i'll get to go to the ladies advance this year. i can't wait for thanksgiviving cus i have that weekend or so off.. can't wait! i gotta go now. ciao

i forgot

my weight loss total goes from 18 pounds to 20 pounds gone. i still don't notice it but i praise God for helping me.

weak stomachs don't read

well it's not gruesome or anything but i was in my last hour of work and started to feel like i was going to puke don't gasp yet i didn't puke at work. it got worse on the way home so i stopped and got some drink thinking it would help i think it made it worse the whole way home i had the air on full blast trying my hardest not to puke on myself or my car. well i pulled up the the stop sign on maple street and i just barely had the car in the driveway and opened the door when it started flowing! so there is cheeto puke in our driveway sorry mom and dad. i still had the car in drive and everything! well i sat there puking out my door for a few mins. then i went inside i feel better now i think i just got to tired and hot at work. i figured that as soon as i puked i'd feel better i'm going to sit on the chair for awhile and since i got home so early i'm gonna take a shower and stuff and set up the sewing machine but wait till like 5 to sew it in case i wake anyone up. well i'm very excited to go to the festival i mean seriously excited!!!!! sorry i'll stop now. ciao!

here goes.

well here goes... hope my dya goes ok. i lied last night about the 1 pound cus i actually lost another pound bringing the total to 18 pounds. i'm tired!!! oh well. see ya'll after work!

relief

well i can let out half a sigh of relief because i part of my costume done, i was up till about 7 pinning it all together not to mention i didn't have a plan or pattern so that takes even longer! i'm still not 100% on the shirt but i geuss we'll see it as we go.... i'm sure a lot of you all thought that i wouldn't get it pinned, and man i wish i hadn't procrastinated. i worked till about 4 this morning and i need to go to bed soon cus i go in an hour early on fridays so hopefully i'll get out in time to take a shower, sew my outfit, maybe steal a few zz's on the couch and then get up for the ren festival i know i won't be able to sleep in anticipation there is only 1 thing i want and that is a GIANT henna tattoo on my arm i never could get it cus of subway but now i can. hopefully i have enough money. haha. well i know mom had study last night with theresa i wonder how it went. i wish i could be there, but oh well. i gained back 1 pound:( you know i can't tell that i've lost anyweight, i don't know if it's cus i am kinda swollen or something from standing for long time then laying down for a long time. i'm going to bed!!!!

something different??

i feel like i write the same thing over and over again on this thing.
i feel like i write the same thing over and over again on this thing.
gotcha! haha that was funny and you know it! well anyways i just got outta the shower it was SO nice! i'm getting ready to pin my outfit together in order to sew it i swear when i get home friday night/saturday morning i'm gonna be sewing the stupid thing!! haha, but i SWEAR if it kills me i'm gonna have a costume this time, i didn't bother to get one or sew one last year cus i thought i was to fat , well not anymore! to me it's not as fun without a costume speaking of fat..... where is mine going?? i lost another 5 pounds bringing my total to drumroll pls......... 17 pounds mia! i'm so excited and i just can't hide it! come on sing it with me now!! i'm so excited that i just can't hide it... ok no ones singing.. awkward pause... anyways i better quite procrastinating (sp?) good night all i'll be here all week!!
ps: HAPPY B-DAY DADDY!!!!!!

agg

agg it's almost wednesday and i still haven't sewed my costume i'm just soo tired that i don't get up till an hour before i have to leave for work i have to get up early one day though so i can sew my outfit and clean the bathroom. oh well i've been thinking about my tattoo and i know mom really wants me to get it fixed and i do to i just never had the money and it was hard to do with subway and everything but in a couple of checks i think i'm going to go to madtown ink and get it fixed. who knows? had an hour and a half of overtime tonight. we didn't get a last break either i was soo aggravated. oh well we got outta there 15 mins quicker. well i'm going to bed night!

way to early

it's way to early for mom and dad to be up i don't know how they do it! anyways i just got home not that long ago. so i just wanted to write a quick one. ciao! oh yeah, my feet didn't hurt as bad cus i double up on the socks! haha and i had to work overtime. now ciao!

was excited

well i was so excited to start my new job, but now i hate it. so i know i'm not gonna be there for a long long time. it's up in the air i have to stay there until at least after december. but i'm thinking that mayb e i should stay till i get all my bills paid off. like my 6,000 massage school loan, my 500 card, my 300 card and my citi card, and try to pay off the rest of my car, i'll be satisfied though if i could pay off all my cards and my loan. if i get a little bit of a bigger check i should be able to pay off my 300 card this next check and then i'll have all my bills for the month paid so i could pay off my 500 card next check. i'm just so frustrated by work. i like haveing the weekends off but. it's just such hard work. the biggest thing is my feet hurting. i don't know if it's just something to get used to or what. anyways i better go get dressed for work and then i'm gonna get the sewing machine out. although i don't really wanna sew anything until i know for sure we won't have to work saturday, we should be ok. i mean we usually get done in about 10 or 11 hours everyday so unless we have an abnormal amount or something things should be ok. i have so been looking forward to the ren festival. i might be a grouch cus i won't have very much sleep but i think i'm learning to go with less. i've gotta call an schedule another therapy appointment. i need it really bad!!! i hate going a week without and it's been a while since i last went there . ok ciao!

my date

well i soo cannot wait for my date tommorow!! ahh! yeah you read that right. who is it? oh let's see tease you or don't tease you?? hmm... einie meinie minie mo...... haha yes it's true i have a date tommorow at cracker barrel for breakfast it's going to be me and my book! haha got you didn't i?? had you going for a minute there don't lie!!!! but no really i plan on taking a nice hot bath in a few minutes and then throwing on my pjs and hitting the couch i don't wanna sleep all day like last week so i figure that this way i'll get up with everyone else. or die trying haha. i'm gonna get up and clean the bathroom and then clean out my car who knows what all is in there?!?! then go to cracker barrel for a nice pecan pancake breakfast with myself and judy bloom my book author. i've been reading it during lunch at work. then sunday we are hopefully going to see resident evil!!! yes!! can't wait to see it! sometime tommorow though i have to get started on my ren festival costume. it won't take long though it's very and i mean very simple! just material and elastic not fooling with zippers,buttons or grommets! oh in case ya'll were wondering i did weld tonight. at least i operated a self welder it was super scary!!!!! i was afraid to stick my hand in there! but i had to. well it's about 4:30 am so i geuss i'll go kill and hour in the tub. ciao!!

zombie

this is what i feel like: a zombie. i got home about 4:30 5 ish. then i don't know what time i went to bed but i had to get back up at 2 and now i have to leave in 10 mins. we have to go in an hour early on fridays. now i know for a fact chris's job is easier than mine. i watched him last night and itt was apparent. haha. tonight i think they are putting me on the other end of my line to weld during like 3 different parts. not sure. but they talked aboutit last night i don't wanna. ok g2 go to stinky work now. thanks everyone for all the comments they really help.

oh yeah

oh yeah i forgot in case you all were wondering in the weight dept. i gained 2 of the 11 pounds back over the weekend but this morning i weighed in at haveing lost the 2 pounds and an extra pound bringing my total weight loss to 12 pounds for a week and a half. i'd say that's good. that just shows that i work hard, i found out yesterday that they stuck me on one of the hardest lines in the area. and that i'll probly never get moved. if i'm not mistaken chris's job is easier than mine not fair. and mindys is to. soo not fair. oh well. i was moving quick last night trying to get done in time. ok now i really gotta go. ciao again!

remember

well last night on my way home the song "remember me" came on and i just started bawling. i feel so lonely without grandma i mean everything reminds me of her. my feet still hurt this morning just not as bad as last night. we had less parts so we got outta there at 2. it would've been 1:30 but we have to run like 6 parts for day shift so it's pretty annoying and we have to clean our line. they were going around last night looking for voluteers for overtime on a different line.they asked ashley first then when she said no they asked me i said no thank you and when they were gone i laughed!! haha. i want outa there as quick as possible. haha. well gotta go to walmart. ciao oh yeah last night when i got to work i made it all the way to the door and realized that i forgot my safety glasses so i had to turn around and walk all the way back not cool! well i ran into mindy for the first time so it was cool

ok

ok well i wouldn't hate my job so much if my stupid feet would stop hurting i can handle anything hurting that can be fixed with advil but i just don't know how to help it and i don't think that an insert is going to help but i'm gonna go get one tommorow and try it. ok i grossed 183.75 more than subway for just one week and only with 2 hours of overtime. i'll have a really good check next time cus so far this week alone i have in almost 6 hours of overtime. and i feel it to. uhh. any suggestions as far as my feet go?? i welcome anything. at my lunch i make it a point to get to a chair and take off my shoes and scratch the bottoms on the side of my steel toes which helps . i have this foot massage thing i use everynight and then i sit on my bed and massage them for 10 mins after that. then i go to bed and when i wake up they still hurt! i'm so frustrated cus it hurts so bad it makes me cry.

well

well i hate my job, with a passion, i'll love my checks though, they put me on a tough line, my feet hurt soo bad it makes me wanna cry thats the main reason for the hate of the job, that and all the overtime but it would'nt be so bad if my feet didn't hurt from the moment i get up to i don't know if they ever stop hurting. it's like it hurts so bad it itches. i have to massage each foot for 10 mins when i get home to lessen the pain. i'm just frustrated that's all. i goota go i need gas. ciao

i think that it is just like a heat rash.

try again

well i'm trying this again cus i posted a long post yesterday but when i hit publish post there was an error and it wouldn't let me. but anywho. i'm TIRED mom ya'll know what i'm talking about, we had to run 1556 ish parts last night and we were being audited and since your only supposed to have 2 work in progress we were standing around a lot. it was frustrating so we didn't get outta there till almost4 am. and by the time i got home mom and dad were up getting there day started. that is crazy my feet hurt so bad by the time i got home i had to waddle hahaha. and i have a huge rash on my leg. i took a pic of it so i'm gonna attempt to load it on here. it was unbearably hot in the plant yesterday i hope it's not to bad today. i'm frustrated we have to go to this meeting after first break and i don't know how long it's going to take it's something for united way wanting donations. but the longer we are in there the more time we have to stay over. and i don't want another 2.5 hours of overtime tonight. so i'm gonna kick it into gear!! they just keep adding the amount of parts needed like last nights number they added 100 more than usual. i'm getting the hang of the different parts and how to change out the machine. we do 8 different parts so it makes for more time when u have to stop and change the machine plates and the parts. oh well i geuss i better go it's raining so i don't know if that'll slow me down getting to work or not. ciao!

yay!

well i made it through orientation. barely made it out without my eyelids and feet dragging. even my butt hurts. haha crazy! lets see i worked 2 hours of overtime thursday night cus one of our machines brokedown on our line. wait that might've happened on wednesday i dunno! this is why i have to update everyday. but i'm really tired and stuff and i just wanna sit in my chair and watch frasier and home improvment reruns. so good night all!!!

more

well i know it's crazy that i'm able to update my blog almost twice a day but i make time for it and it's the only thing i have time for, pip woke me up this morning whining and scratching at my door then he followed me to the bathroom and laid by the door. i think he misses me. it's so sad! well i'm starting to get adjusted i was going to work some overtime last night but the way things workout out is that i have nothing to do for the last 15 mins of my shift because at 9:15 the line goes to lunch, and i would have to take another lunch to stay over and it just doesn't work out. oh my goodness we got soooo far behind last night because one of our machines broke down and they had to call maintenace(sp)? we were still able to keep moving just at a very slow speed (so not complaining about that :) ) haha. well, i know they had to work overtime last night just don't know how much. one of the mexican grls turned off our fan and i was like sweating to death! i mean stench and all!! we finally turned it back on because it was getting hot but the grl wore a long sleeved sweater and she got cold! who gets cold in a factory???????? not me. well i cannot wait till friday only 1 more day cus this week i'm pretty sure i don't have to work saturday. at least i hope that it is voluntary. i'm still at the same weight now, so not as dramatic a loss as the first 2 days. i can tell to. thanks for the encouraging words everyone! gotta go
~ ciao~

checked

well i checked it this morning and it says down 2 more pounds, pip woke me up barking at the garbage truck this morning he was about to die. haha i just yelled at him to be quiet well not to long after that i hear these scratches and whining he was at my door whining it's really deppressing me that i havne't seen either mom or dad, i was hoping to get home in time last night to see dad and pip even if only for a second. it's weird going from seeing them everyday to only on weekends. stinks. oh well i need to leave for work. i got to get some mountain dew for energy during the 4 hours of talking time, we get to see gross pics of accidents. bleh. i have been so nauseaus anyways i don't need any help in that area. i didn't thro up last night though. welp ciao!

just uhh

haha, i just got home from my second day i finnally know where my line is and the exit door. that being said, it takes me a good 15 mins to walk from my line to my car i swear it's gotta be a mile! i saw chris today if the line he was on is his usual line then he is right across the way from me. it's nice to see a familiar non mexican face. hhaa. theres one guy that won't leave me alone and it kinda creeps me out. another thing is that it's dangerous to walk out to my car myself i have to park in the very back. i had a little more energy tonight than last night. my acting team leader was mad i didn't stay and work overtime, and i was gonna but everyone i've talked to said don't cause you'll have to work overtime the next week. and my line is short handed i geuss they just got rid of the advisor and team leader not that long ago so there is mainly a bunch of new people on my line. i do the same 2 machines for like the first 2 and a half hours than for the remainder i do 3 well normally only 3 but tonight i had to do 4 enter sad face but to tired to try to do it.the metal stuff itches!! well i'm going to sleep. thank goodness and i checked this morning and i lost 9 pounds yeah you read right i'll see what it is in the morning. oh and great news all the holidays we have off are paid!!!!!!!!!!! yeah!!ok i really need to go to bed now. ciao!

uhhhhhhhhhh

uhhhhhhhhhhhh
that's me i'm so tired that i could barely get up i just wanted to stay in bed and say forget it i'll do something else, but i can't i know this week is going to be the hardest but yesterday oh boy, lets see i had about a thousand metal splinters, i learned how to work 6 different machines in a matter of 4 hours, they had me running 3 at the same time, i'm like ugg. it's ok, i just wish i could have a little bit of time before work, but i have to leave in like 15 mins and i'm not dressed or anything. but i got home last night went to the loo than puked 3 times and started a nosebleed during the second time. horriible oh well gotta go, ciao

the saga

just in case anyone was wondering i got my car fixed it was the battery and it cost me about 73$ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. for my make,model,and year they only sell the higher priced ones so ahhhhhh! oh well i'm thankful that i got my money from subway so that i don't have to worry about it to much.

wondering

well i'm just sitting here starting to get worried and stressed about monday it was so deppressing last night since it was my last wed night. and that's alway been my favorite time. oh well. lets see i haven't talked to any of the grls except disbro since i quit. i hate that i don't get to see them. i need to get my eye exam but i don't have the money for it now i wish i would've done it when i still had insurance cus i have to wait at least 34 days and i'm afraid that i will lose my contacts before that cus i'm on my last pair have been for at least awhile now. oh well i geuss i should make a list of things i need to get done and bills that i need to pay and stuff. definelintly have to pay my citi card! that one is just sooooo outrageous bout now.i'm hoping that i get paid pretty quickly. anyways i don't wanna think about it. i've learned from both amanda and matt that i better start saving my money now so i can have the wedding i dream about it's going to be so cool! something that's tottally me! and it's gonna be expensive. haha.my budget will consist of
85% for my monthly bills.
and 3% for a vacation
3% for my wedding
3% for a house
3% for adoption fees
and 3% for emergencys
I hope i can work plenty of overtime, and that i'm gonna be able to handle it. of course i haven't figured out if 85% if enough for my monthly bills. and should i pay everything off or at least all 3 credit cards and my therapy before i adapt this budget?? i dunno. haha geuss what??? I found a place to go skiing in North Carolina!! I have always wanted to try it.and i am going to no matter what! haha. i'm tired of living my life scared to do anything so i'm gonna do it!!! the only thing i'm worried about is the ski lift cus i'm afraid of heights. i'm excited about NC i haven't been on a vacation in a long time. i can't wait to go shopping for some clothes!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! sorry i got kinda excited. haha. well ~ciao bellas~

time goes by..

as time goes by it seems like we forget what happened this day 6 years ago, 6 years?!?! i can't believe its been that long, lets all pause and reflect.. ok. i'm so very frustrated, because i was supposed to have therapy today but my car won't start so i can't go! arrg.. me and dad have to go and get a new battery. hope it's not to expensive. it's weird how when you think things should go ok they decide that they arent'. everything with my finances wouldve been fine if this hadn't happened. i'm still ok just tight. i'll be glad to start getting some paychecks, but it has been very nice being off work. well i haven't had a chance to go to the store yet and so i have no food almost. and i'm hungry. i woke up this morning and could barely drag myself outta bed, but i have been staying up till like 2 and 3 in the morning trying to get used to it, the only thing that might be bad after i start at aisin is going to sunday morning service cus it'll throw me off kilter i'd rather continue to stay up late during the weekend and just go to the night service but i don't wanna miss the morning service. oh well i'll figure it out. it's obvious isn't it that i have wayy to much time on my hands that i am able to write a book everytime i update this thing!!?!?!haha ~ciao bellas and fellas~

top left side: me and katiebugg!

top right side: my beautiful!!

bottom: me! i just now figured out how to post pics so i'll post pics of everybody!!

katelynn nicole disbro..

it's only 1 pm.....

well, it is only 1 pm and i've had more excitment this morning then all of last week! well i got a call very early this morning from disbro, she had katelynn nicole on saturday, she has a head full of hair and thankfully looks just like her mommy! she weighed 6lbs7.7oz. shes a cuttie! normally i don't hold babies but i made an exception for her. disbro was in tears when she called me because there had been a lot of drama! oh by the way she was only in labor for 45 mins :( she just got lucky! haha. she had the epideral when she called me on saturday and she was dialated 4 cm well they said she was at 80% and in an hour she had dialated to 8! she had katiebug pretty fast. but during her labor her babys daddy/fiance decided to get into it with her dad (who didn't like him to begin with) and i'm not sure why or anything but they were fighing and he tried to hit disbros mom so when i got to the hospital today disbro said that her parents were down there getting a restraining order. i got to her door and there was a note saying you had to go to the nurses station to get permission to go in there. crazy! which i'm glad that they finnally saw how he was which he is the same one who hit amanda while trying to get to chris. he has a mean temper. so now she really is a single parent and she is just so scared and stuff. but her mom called the room while i was with disbro and she needed some info from her to get the restraing order, well katiebugg started to fuss and disbro was trying to get her stuff out and hold her and the phone so i offered to hold her, and then i held her for awhile, shes a cutie!
thought the excitment was over didn't you? haha nope.
i decided to go up to walmart and fill up my tank, well i had trouble yesterday with my car and it wouldn't start so dad had it hooked up to a slow charger last night, this morning i went out to go to the hospital and my car started ok it took a couple tries but it was fine and same for when i left the hospital well i went out to my car to leave walmart and inside i had run into chris getting a gas card to well my car wouldn't start, so i called chris to come take me to ovo and we borrowed some cables we had to push my car out into the lane and people were getting aggravated, but we finnally got it to start so on the way home i decided to call andy to see what his decision was about giving me my rightfully earned bonus, and i was prepared to turn him into the labor and wage office for not giving scheduled breaks and turning him in for working school kids past the allowed time. but he didn't know that, well thankfully he said go to hanover and get 100$ from jean, so thank goodness! i really need it especially since i think i have to get a new battery.but i'm so thankful none of this happened my first week of work. so God was looking out for me there! ok now i'm done writing this novel i need to clean the house up a bit and attempt to find some food.

chillaxin..

well i awoke this morning to pip barking his head off, it's times like these that i wish he was mute! haha. aww hes sitting on the bench sleeping.... our air conditioner froze up yesterday so dad had to use my hair dryer to get all the ice off, it was sooo hot in here. i woke up with my knee throbbing so i geuss its going to rain today. i have my last therapy session this tuesday the last one till my insurance kicked in and the only reason i'm going is because she is doing it for free. thank goodness! i can't wait till i'm able to start going back everyweek! i'm thinking of sewing a dress for the ren festival but it's such short notice since they are going oct 6th. plus i can sew the costume and get all excited about it and then boom i might have to work that day. hopefully i don't have to pull too many saturdays.welp ciao for now!!

stressin....

hello all!!!
this is my first blog entry so exciting!! well i'm sure some of you all know that i quit my job on monday. it's been such a hassle getting the money they owe me, but i've decided to let it go i no longer want anything to do with subway! my boss jean she is such the actress! haha i'm tellin ya that grl can make you think she cares and when things don't go her way she turns into an ogre! haha.. the only reason any of this bothers me is because i hate it when people are mad or upset at me. but enough about that. i'm very excited to start aisin!! money, money money moneyyyyy! haha, it not all about the benjamins it's also an outward show of how i've grown and progressed. anyways thanks everyone for being patient with me and loving me i know i'm not the easiest person in the world! anywho i better go i'm starting to get all mushy!